Today was a fucked up day:
Hello, I'm 2PM's Jaebeom.
I'm sorry for giving you my last greeting through this letter.
I think it will be hard for me to see you all on stage because of my sorry heart.
I'm really sorry to everyone, and I'm even more sorry to the fans who have shown me love.
From today, I will leave 2PM.
2PM boys, I'm really sorry to the boys and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong as a leader and a hyung and have to leave like this.
However, I hope you will be more cool and charming.
Again, I'm sorry.
Jaebeom
credit; allkpop Damn it, words can't express how I'm feeling now, but yeah, my actions can and I have to say that I've been crying like shit. How can Park Jaebeom do this to us? Please, anti-fans, don't go around and use this as an excuse for your lowly actions. Don't say that Jaebeom insulted Korea. Of course, if you're a Korean, you know NOTHING English and you get sent to the USA to live and communicate, obviously you'd say the same, or even, worse. Plus, as anti-fans, it's totally known that you've went around speaking shit about Jay. Don't act this way, please. Just reflect, why cause so much troubles? Isn't it okay to just keep your opinion to yourselves and not go so far to the extent of signing a fucking petition for Jay to commit suicide? If you want someone to commit suicide, then I think that you don't even deserve to be a human. How could you even think of such a thing? Sure, I might just be a fangirl getting angry but, I'll be as angry if cyber bullies force someone to do such a thing. Now, you even fucking force a person out of a country. Have you never thought about how malicious and low that is?
I don't understand why anti-fans are so evil, what is so hard about keeping your opinions to yourself and not make others' lives miserable? Hottest, even though we failed to protect Jaebeom from those actions performed by heartless netizens, let us do our best to bring him back. We want our Jay back. Why did this have to happen just when their anniversary has just passed? Bad things seem to be happening to the music industry this year.
Jay, even though you'll never read this, I'll feel better if I say it. Although I respect your decisions, do know that I feel quite angry and disappointed with you for running away (no offence). I expected and trusted that you would remain in Korea and show us all that you've learnt and you'll be a better person. I know you apologized, we all forgive you but the right thing to do was to stay. I have no clue about the circumstances in which you had to leave Korea, whether you left based on your own decision, whether you were pressured to you or whether you were forces out of Korea. You should've put up a fight. We all expected that of you and we do feel disappointed that you didn't and instead, returned to Seattle. You act strong, you didn't cry in front of the fans but that is not the strong we want. What we want is just for you to stay and fight, fight and make us proud. However, it is okay to cry. Crying doesn't mean you're weak. Crying shows that you're strong enough to show us who you really are. If you feel like crying, cry. Though I have a gut feeling that you'll cry when you get back to Seattle.
An apology and a bow isn't enough to replace you, Jay. Sure, we forgive you & we love you but it's precisely because of that that those two aren't enough. If we received those apologies and bows in exchange for you, I think that we'd rather not have that. Nothing can ever replace you, Jay. Please return to Korea.
Adding to that, TVXQ's matter is still not settled and I pray with every ounce of my faith and hope that everything will turn out to be fine, TVXQ will be fine, Jay returns and all will be well. Coincidentally, I had to find out my bitch of a (supposed)friend still bitches about me. THANKS BITCH. IT'S BEEN WHAT, 8 MONTHS OR SO, HALF A YEAR ALREADY, GET OVER IT. Weren't you the one that wanted to get over it? Fine, I have, so get over it as well. If you and that bitch of yours leave me alone, I will. I'm already devastated that you had to do this to me, now I have to find out that even though I try my best to avoid you, you just don't want to leave me alone and just keep bitching about me. If you stop, I'll be so happy, I might even give you a present for your fucking wedding. Thanks a lot and good riddance. I hate you.
忘れないは言って嘘で 本当は忘れたくないだけ
強がりが僕らしさならば もういらない
君がいなきゃ 何にも感じない幸せって
どう頑張ってみても零れ落ちた涙は すぐに止まらない
だから今こうして 僕はまたひとり 君の名前呼んでる
これ以上切なさを抱きしめていけるわけなどないよ
でもそれしかないんだよ
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